DrShoggoth

I have to admit, I find most counter-cultural activism and such things to be a little silly, possiobly pointless even. It's something inside of me, some weird I love, the idea that even though I think they miss the point, and are doomed to failure, I just love them a little for at least trying. Sadly, the view of the world that most people who would consider themselves "against the mainstream" have is, pretty much 100% wrong. There is no big screen or smoky room where the 23 Industrialists who control the world sit around and decide what's going to happen everywhere all the time. Shit, there might not actually be a shadow government? Well, that's absurd, but guess what; it doesn't act like you think it does, not one bit. They probably don't even knwo that they ARE the shadow government.

People who try to hard to do things that they probably shouldn't do, people who think they am what they amn't, people who take the ideas of not being like everyone else and twist it around into their little cliques. Punks and ravers, hippies, I think Goths might still be considered vaguely hip, but they're time is done. Then lots of people try to reject those labels, by being 'scene' or just vaguely 'hip' (probably in combination with scene). I mean, that's fine for laughs and dealing with boredom, but the delussion that you're actually going to accomplish anything is silly. Am I a bit nihilistic? Probably, but it's a comfortable nihilism. You probably ARE doomed to failure, being 'different' or changing the world are almost certainly not things you'll be doing, at least not in the way you think. You'll probably end up giving up on all this idealistic siliness and get a steady job (having rejected formal education) working as a manager at Steak n Shake. Well, at least you can still have some bumper stickers to express your promotion of such "out there" and "controversial" beliefs; no torture, being nice, tolerating people. What a rebel you are! Getting shit done telling people to be nice, ain't ya? Jesus tried it, he was better at it than you'll ever be and look what hapened to him! Don't worry, you're not ever going to get crucified. Nobody cares about you enough to hate you that much.

At least you tried. Didn't you? Did you really? Actually, other than downloading some Mojo Nixon and perhaps going to a local coffee shop instead of Starbucks (which you almost certainly didn't.), you're just vaguely expressing your hip and with-it leftist opinions. Hint: The cool kids don't look like the cool kids, and they don't act like them either. Chilling at the local shows? Wowzers! How was the band? Shitty, almost certainly. Did you meet anyone really actually interesting? Probably not. Maybe though, but unlikely. I'm not saying to eat apathy for breakfast, you have to go out and have fun, meet people, but why do you need to make a cause out of it? Wanna make your point? Then get your shit together and actually do what you believe would be the way to go about it, and try to have a modicum or originality, creativity, and maybe even equipment. It'll probably be hard work, but it'll be a lot better than fucking around with half-baked ideologies and groups of shiftless ineffectual people. Almost certainly.

That's a little what this hopelessly utopian site is about, getting your shit together. Maybe a few people will be interested. You know what the cynic would say though.